thoughts from a wandering mind


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Good girlfriends

Ryan was gone for a week (last week) and I was just feeling pregnant and lonely. The weekdays aren’t usually so bad because I’m at the gym and work and time flies. Weekends without my partner in crime sorta suck. So I made some plans for Saturday.

The morning kicked off with a visit to the Farmer’s Market with my friend Myriah, her son Tristan, and her sister Hayley. I had been wanting to go to the downtown farmer’s market for a long time, so I was so happy to have someone to go with. It was HOT and unlike Phoenix, it was HUMID. We were soaked. As we meandered the the rows of vendors, and tried cheese, granola and watermelon, smelled flowers, basil and fresh pasta, I felt so ‘organic’. Organic to where I am, part of it all and supporting local farmers, and of course organic in the sense that everything I was buying wasn’t processed or sprayed or well-traveled.

After the market, I met my friend Bea, her husband, and her 6 month old Morgan for lunch. It’s a good time for me to be hanging out with babies…as I better get used to it.  Our conversation involved a lot of questions from my side about what to expect, what is hard, what is the biggest change, etc.

A quick trip back to my pool to lay on a float and read a book in the sun for a bit before heading to see a movie with my friend Carlie. I have never really enjoyed going to the movies. Ryan LOVES it. He would go every weekend if I let him. And he LOVES popcorn. It always seems weird to be to eat a big thing of popcorn at a movie because I don’t really snack, and it can’t really take the place of a meal. Having moved to Phoenix, getting a couple of hours of relief in the A/C is something I can do, and if that means I have to watch a movie, fine. Carlie and I met and saw a movie Ry and I probably would have never seen (a rom com). It was fun! She is pregnant too, so it was funny to see her rubbing her belly as I was and feeling her baby kick as mine did too. She couldn’t get me to eat popcorn either but at least she got me to the movie! When the movie ended and we both admitted we had to pee SO badly we could barely walk to the bathroom, I thought about how lucky I am to have the friends I have. The ones who understand and commiserate, the ones who have the same questions and fears, hopes and wants as me. The ones who offer me a place to stay when my AC breaks and my husband is out of town (this happened a few days before my nice Sat!).

So yeah, I ALWAYS miss Ry when he is gone. And he really is my second half. But it is pretty rewarding to have some really good girlfriends.